I suppose I should just admit that I did not think my eldest was going to get into high school. Or at least a sizable portion did not believe it would happen, mainly because he is such a poor test taker and has gone years without actually studying or doing homework. And the fact that it is a new level for us and all these other parents have been planning forever for their kids to get in, sending them to juku for hours upon hours every week from the age of ten. And yet, he got in.
Which means that most likely the other kids will also be able to get in.
There is no reason anymore to consider returning to the States.
This means I have to recalibrate my perception of the future as now I see that we will most likely never leave here.
I will probably retire in Japan and die here. This is something I have never considered before.
There are so many elements I must shift in response to this realization.
And yes, part of this clarity is a result of how America is reacting to the pandemic. Because if I get to pick teams, I will go with Team Japan, the one where public health is a priority, where it is possible to contain the virus because people are more likely to go to the hospital since they have health care, where things like washing hands and not touching everything and everyone is already standard. As of right now, America has over 23,000 confirmed cases and yet less people than ever believe that this is a big deal. To which I say, good luck with that.
I will be restructuring this space within the next few weeks to reflect my renewed commitment to staying and living in Japan. I plan to put these sort of free-writing posts under the heading of blog instead of being here on the main page. I like keeping a chronicle of my thoughts but I need to refocus on making this land my permanent home.
And on that thought, it’s now time to hit my kanji workbooks.